Soul Bonding

I'm developing a really special relationship with myself and Jesus Christ and the more I mature the more I take responsibility for everything or every relationship I have endured in my past. Thank God I never was the type to fall quickly for just anyone. Even when I was younger I sort of understood my worth. You can say I made a few mistakes with guys but I cherish them a as learning lessons. And I appreciate them all. But I'm proud to say I never really rushed into anything physical with a guy. There was one time I started to move a bit fast but that was the only time I felt like my soul was connected to this person. I can't really explain but you'll know when it happens. But when it happens and things begin to move a bit fast, how will that other person know? How would you be able to convince him/her that it's not you it's them? I don't usually do this fast-paced stuff, he just triggered something in my soul that gave me non stop green lights. And you know the soul bonding is there when you can't even slow down. When you can't cease to day dream about all of your future excursions with this guy and you think about all of the words you two have exchanged over the past months. When you can't seem to find someone as close to perfectly matching your wants, needs, desires. And over a large amount of time, months, years, you notice that out of the 20 or more people you've been on dates with no one left a strong enough impression to completely obliterate your thoughts of that guy you're so in love with. And the dates never get past those initial 2 dates and you know it. And that's why you stare at your glass of water at the dinner table while you drift off into dream land about your lover boy. And you yawn from the boredom and all the day dreaming you've just had  while you are on the date with the other guy. And you know it's so wrong but sometimes fantasizing is better than experiencing the reality of the bigger picture.